Today was a Mother’s Day first — the first without mom.
It was a day I was not looking forward to but my family and friends managed to make it a special one.
We had brunch in Dallas and D. was in from Houston. My brother thoughtfully called to check in on me and a best friend from high school, with whom I’ve reconnected with via Facebook, sent me a thoughtful message about this being my first Mother’s Day without mom; she lost hers 17 years ago. My great kids got me a new tech toy – an iPad.
We also had a funeral to go to, but it gave me a chance to be with mom, who I was going to visit anyway. It’s was strange looking down at her grave but I also felt a little at peace. The rabbi came over and said a prayer.
I continue to miss mom everyday but I’m really trying to move on. I know how angry she would be if she knew how her passing has affected me.
So mom, my Mother’s Day gift to you is to continue to move forward in the healing process, but please allow me the time. Your absence is not easy to get over that quickly.
Happy Mother’s Day. I love you.